Round 2 Begins

June 3, 2010 began my second "Walk on the Beach" journey. Not quite the beautiful blue water, white sandy beach and soothing sounds of the surf that I had hoped for, but a new journey non the less. My cancer has once again decided to try to take up residency ignoring my "no vacancy" posting. God and time will tell how long it will take to process the eviction this time. I have had suspicions for the past two months, but medicine, being a practice took awhile to confirm the diagnosis. I will get my CT Scan results tomorrow to and will begin my new cocktail regimen of Doxil every 28 days for 4 initial treatments. Then we will see how good it's eviction powers are or decide on another course of treatment.

I have been blessed with 9 cancer free months and memories too numerous and precious to count. Broken family relationships were healed and made stronger. Time with my precious son, daughters, and grand guardian angels were many and very dear. Long distance family relationships were rekindled and important things in life are once again important and petty things no longer matter. I became Grammy to precious little Braylon. Friends were so supportive and caring and the list goes on and on. God has proven beyond my wildest dreams how true, constant and faithful He is.

The journey has been rough and this new one in many ways is even more terrifying, but I have already seen glimmers of God's purpose and plan and I willing walk this path with His leading. Many dreams of this summer will have to be put on hold - no time in the sun, stay out of the heat (in VA Beach in the summer??). No Busch Garden trips with the Grands, no daytime swims at the pool or days at the beach. But they are only temporary No's and other joys will take their place. The long weekend trip to Illinois in July and the week at Atlantic Beach in August will NOT be cancelled. We'll just need to take naps in the daytime so we can have energy to play when the sun goes down. More time to take Lindsey, Xander, Jason A. & Sophie to the beach just before sunrise to watch the sand crabs burrow after their all night adventures, early evening walks on the beach at sunset and early morning walks to see the ocean come to life with the sun rise. We'll even be able to enjoy the ice cream cones more slowly in the cool of the evening instead of hurrying to eat them in the heat of the day. See, God doesn't close a door without opening a window - we just have to listen for and feel the breeze.

I thank all of you for your love, your support and prayers as you help me on this journey. God Bless.

Love,
Char